Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Remission!

On Tuesday, November 13th, I took Mom to Dr. Dy (her oncologist) for her 12th chemo treatment. He said that her CA 125 (cancer marker) is down to 18, which means it is below the normal of 34. He also said that since she has completed 2 rounds of chemo, she is done (at least for now)! He said that her scans show no re-growth of any cancer and since the markers are down, he's calling her in remission. Actually, what he told us was "oh, did I not tell you? You've technically been in remission for a few weeks now." It was still very good news!!

We will continue to see him, most likely on a monthly basis. And she will have the blood test, the CT scans and exams done every 1-3 months. Because remission and cancer-free are not the same thing, we have to monitor this closely.

Thank you all for your prayers, calls, letters and thoughts. We're very aware of the fact that God has had His hand on this from the very beginning. We're also aware that her cancer is aggressive and could come back on us quickly and she's also extremely worn out and experiencing a few long-term side effects from the chemo. So if you could continue to remember her in prayer, we'd greatly appreciate it! Thanks again!

Saturday, November 3, 2007

The grass is sometimes greener...

I'm sure that you've gotten phone calls, cards or emails from friends who are sharing their great news. And you love that they are so blessed and that wonderful things are happening in their lives. I love when a friend calls to tell me that she or he is getting married! Or when I'm told that new babies will be entering our world! I love hearing that news and being excited for my friends!

Here's what happens sometimes, though. I'm 28 and single. Though I normally have NO problems with this, when multiple engagements and wedding talks take place at the same time, there comes that little question in the back of my mind "when, if ever, will it be my turn?" I love when my friends have babies! I love babies and little ones. I love being able to spoil them, play with them and do my part to point them toward the Lord. I love being Aunt Meredith! But that question comes again "will I ever get to have one of my own?" I see the divorce rates rising and think....some of these women are leaving 2 awesome husbands throughout their lifetimes and I don't even get one to love and cherish. And having worked in child welfare, I know that there are MANY people who have children that they don't love and nurture, yet I'm single so no children for me. I guess that's another time that life just doesn't seem fair.

However, I look over the events of my life, the last few months and even the past week. My parents have been sick and by being single and child-free, I have been with them almost every waking moment to help take care of them, talk with them and just be with them. I wouldn't trade the time with them for anything. By being single, I was able to decide in 12 hours that I would pack up and move to China for a year. I was also able to decide to move to Florida for a few months to work with a church plant. And last week, I was able to pack up, drive my parents to Ohio and see aunts & cousins on a moment's notice.

Yes, I would love to be married and become a mother one day. But, right now I can see that the grass is pretty green on my side. I can vacation when I want, I can move if I want, I can come and go as I please. I can spend my money spoiling everyone else's children, love their kids and be loved by their kids....and when the diapers are dirty - I can pass them back to their mommy!

Yes, the grass is pretty green here!